Oh my god! Okay... so, here I am just casually opening up my email listings of job announcements...
I'm scared. I'm real scared. Only I think I'm more frightened by the prospect of success than by failure. At least failure I'm accustomed to. Okay, first off this is just a posting... a multi-year fellowship in [Field 3]. [SIGH]
There was a paper at the Scotland conference I just attended given jointly by a Research Fellow and the Director of the Program. They are interested in and have an established (though still small) program in my real interdisciplinary research focus.
The fellowship is essentially a research post for the first couple years, with a transition into teaching. What a dream! Don't need it. Don't need it. Gotta remember that.
But, god I want it! Deadline is next week! Short notice, eh?