45 minutes and counting. I'm nervous. Excited. It's only a colloquium talk. My friends and colleagues. But... in a sense I'm justifying a major part of my research program. My talk goes over a good chunk of what my recent NEH grant proposal is all about. So, it's important to me. It's my research. Not a talk based on my dissertation (albeit one I liked) that is geared toward justifying the work I've already done, showing that I know my stuff. No, this is all new, forward-looking, works-in-progress. And it's all me.
I feel naked, unadorned. Please let there be no mosquitos!